Author: Christina Kilbourne
Genre: YA, Mental Illness
Published August 13th 2016 by Dundurn Press
Anna has always been so level-headed, so easy-going, so talented and funny. How could anyone have guessed she wanted to die?
Anna is not like other people. For one thing, she’s been an accomplished artist since she was a preschooler. For another, she’s always felt like she didn’t belong: not with other kids, not with her family, not in her body. It isn’t until her grandparents are killed in a tragic accident, however, that Anna starts to feel untethered. She begins to wonder what it would be like if she didn’t exist and the thought of escaping the aimless drifting is the only thing that brings her comfort.
When Anna overdoses on prescription pain killers the doctors realize she has been suffering from depression and start looking for a way to help her out of the desperate black hole she never thought she would escape. It’s then that rock bottom comes into sight and the journey back to normal begins.
“I want to thank the publisher, Dundurn Press for sending a galley of this book, this will not affect nor influence my review.”
Amazing, a very sensitive yet powerful book! I had to finish it in one sitting, if you look closely at the cover you might think that it’s going to be a thriller but NO, the title itself speaks as you flip through the pages of this book.
I admired the author more when I read the introduction of this book, she explained how she wasn’t suppose to write this because she didn’t want to give someone the idea to kill themselves, this book talks about teen suicide, but a mother whose teenage son committed suicide approached her, the mother wanted to use this story for her outreach efforts. The author then had the courage to continue on writing this novel, she wanted this book to attract teens but not scare off their parents. Instead she wanted to write a book that would give hope, understanding and perhaps a measure of comfort to anyone who might be reading and wanting to end their life.
Teenage suicide and depression is a very sensitive topic to focus on in a novel but I think the author gave justice to this! Yes, it did tackled deep issues regarding family and loss but I felt that it didn’t made the situation much worse but it gave answers & hope to the characters in this story. I loved how it was told by 3 different perspectives; the main character(Hannah), her best friend and most importantly her mother.
As I was reading, I had this thought that It’s really hard for those people who are suffering depression to express what they’re feeling, they feel so detached to the people around them. This book gave me the message that there will always be hope, even if it’s total darkness there will always be a light even if it’s just a spec it will later on grow bigger if you let it inside you. This book touched my heart and I’m sure it will captivate yours.
I don’t read books about mental-illness that much but thank God I read this book! I recommend this one to all of you!
Oh and by the way, there’s a book trailer for this novel!!!! CHECK IT OUT